Ornery day…
Every once-in-a-while I have a really ornery day. By this I mean that virtually everything I notice results in a negative thought. For example, as I was thinking about writing this down, I saw how long it has been since I updated my blog, which triggered a whole barrage of negative thoughts. I thought about how I’d update more if more people cared, but then I thought about how that’s really kind of selling out, as I really do this more for me than for anyone else, thus I should update it more because that’s why I blog, then I thought about how freaking self-analytical I can be at times and how it causes me unecessary stress, and probably irritates my family as well, etc. etc.
I’m sitting in my office at work, being immeasurably happy that I have an office I can sit in and not have to constantly deal with our patrons, whom I have a large degree of disdain for on normal days because of the inability of 90% of college students to look for information before asking stupid questions. If I had to deal with patrons constantly on days like today, I’d probably lose my job really quickly, because I’d be making snarky comments at people all day long, who would proceed to complain to my supervisor, and I’d lose my job.
So, anyway, I’m sitting in my office being cranky and looking for something to make me laugh today, and I’m not finding anything. All my favorite webcomics are at a somewhat in-between point of storyline development, or just aren’t funny today.
I got my MCAT scores last night, and as I expected, I dropped about 3 points from last time I took it. This shouldn’t upset me. I’ve got a 33 instead of a 36, that’s still a nice score and one that won’t keep me out of any school I’ve applied to (it’s up to my to keep myself out by screwing up the interviews or secondary applications), and my essay score was a Q this time, instead of an N, so it was MUCH better, yet I’m still feeling really irritated by it. Every time I think about it, I want to spit.
So I think about playing some games for a while, but none of them are entertaining to me. At all. I have class in an hour, and then I have to go tutor, both are things I normally enjoy quite a bit, but today, I just really don’t have any desire to do either. I’m just all-around cantankerous today, and it irritates me that I am.
Grrr.
